Sunday, December 18, 2011
I'm still here . . .
...and VERY pregnant.
Everything seemed to be fine last week at my appointment (Thank you, Lord), so my OB wants to induce this week. I'll be started on Cervadil Tuesday night and then Pitocin Wednesday morning. I can't believe this is my last child-less weekend. Tomorrow will be my last "lazy" Sunday that I can lay around, guilt-free, and worry about no one and nothing but myself. It's so surreal. Battling a miscarriage and my rocky pregnancy, it seemed like it took so long to get here... and it's finally here.
We found out the Tuesday after Easter, and yes, I had just gotten my new camera ;)
I probably won't be laying around much tomorrow though... I still have to wash a few clothes, finish packing, and do some last minute cleaning. My parents are coming down Tuesday night before we head to the hospital and I know we will have more company soon after we get back from the hospital (hopefully Friday). The last thing I want to be doing on Christmas Eve and Christmas day is cleaning and washing clothes.
I will say that nerves are starting to get the best of me. I am an obsessive "internet researcher" and some things just have me freaked out. I hope Lily is a perfectly healthy baby. I hope my epidural works. (I know Pitocin makes labor "exaggerated".) I hope there's not too much... um, "trauma" to my body. I hope that I don't end up with a C-section. I hope the recovery process doesn't ruin my Christmas / New Years. I hope I don't say mean things to my husband while I'm in labor. I hope my labor isn't 48 hours long. I hope I'm a good mother.
(For you mothers, I'm open for any kind of advice or reassurance here.) I will say though, I'm so over being pregnant, I just have this "let's get this over-with" attitude. I'm ready to have my body back. I'm ready to be able to drink coffee. I'm ready to get off of all of this blood pressure medicine. I'm ready to start back working out. I'm ready to be able to sleep on my stomach. I'm ready to not feel exhausted ALL THE TIME. I'm ready to do some updates around the house and work on my list of sewing projects and recipes that I've been itching to try. (Hopefully I can get some good blogging material going next year... I know it's been all about my pregnancy lately.) I'm ready for the heartburn and nosebleeds to go away. I'm ready to be able to get out of the bath tub without out my husband's assistance. I ready to go shopping and treat myself to some new clothes. I'm ready to be able to get out of this house and see our friends and family. I'm ready to be able to put my wedding rings back on comfortably. I'm ready for a new year with my new little addition. :)
I tried to answer all of my emails tonight and skim through a few new followers and your blogs. I thought the issue was fixed, but I still can't see ALL of my new followers. If I haven't followed you back or commented on your blog it's because you don't have your blog listed on your blogger profile, or I just can't see you in my followers list. If that's the case, you can comment here, and I hopefully I will see it. I will surely have some downtime stuck in bed next week, so I'm really looking forward to reading your blogs and learning more about you.
I guess this will be my last "pregnancy" post. (For a few years anyway!) I will update after the delivery as soon as I am able. I'm off to bed now. I only have three more nights of uninterrupted sleep. ;)